CIC PPR

Please pardon me, this post will be very emotional.

Exactly ten days after our BG went to in progress, we finally received the golden email from CIC. Our PPR (passport request).

I received the golden email at a time when I am so busy with our high school grand reunion. I volunteered myself to be the head coordinator just to make an excuse of not checking our MyCIC from time to time but obviously I failed, LOL.

Here is the story. I always check our MyCIC for I do not know how many times in a day. Believe me, I wake up in the wee hours from 1:00 AM to 5:00 AM just to check on our MyCIC. I tried to stop myself but I cannot hold it but opens it just to check for  a "new message". Not "updated" anymore, yes, because in my heart, I believe God has worked on our PR applications. My prayer to our Father God (because honestly there is so much anxiety in this waiting game) is for Him to please send the golden email to my personal mail if it is a PPR and not in our MyCIC. Still, as a human being, I open and ends up saddened every time I check on our MyCIC for any "new message" but none at all.

Today, I am in McDonalds ( a food chain here in our country) having lunch and waiting for my friend (a fellow coordinator in our reunion). While eating, I checked on our MyCIC for any good news but there is none. Then out of nowhere, after almost 30 minutes, a notification came. I saw it, it is the donotreply email address from CIC (I accidentally cancelled it because I am busy checking on my IG, LOL). Oh my, I sit straight, opened my yahoo mail and there is the donotreply email which I missed so much. Here it is:

Goosebumps to the highest level but inside me, I was so nervous. I managed to go to whatsapp and told my NB friends that I just received an email from CIC. Thank you to Globe for giving me an LTE connection and not just the 3G one so I went on to MyCIC. I am praying so hard during that time and PPR is the only thing on my mind because it was what I prayed for. The image below made me faltered for a while because I read first the "submitted" before the "new" under messages. See below:

After clicking on the "check status and messages", I saw a new date in our messages. I clicked on it, opened the pdf and oh my God. I did not read everything but scanned for anything that is familiar when it comes to PPR just like those that are shared in our group and in forums. I did not bother reading it but dialed my husband's number and I was crying at McDonalds (I do not care) because what registered on my mind is not snow or maple leaf or Canada but an image of a baby. It is actually coming just like what God has planned for me and my husband. Afterwhich, I called my mom and told her the good news. Then back to my duties as a coordinator. I need to finish everything because tomorrow will be our grand reunion.

Going back on the PPR letter, what I saw first is the highlighted 30 days and since I did not read properly, I am doubting now as I write, is it really the PPR? I will read and download the pdf for a while, LOL.

So, it is really the PPR, LOL. It is a 6 pages pdf letter from CIC. I will not attached page 6 because it is blank but here is our PPR letter:

It is much beautiful than my IELTS report.  It is indeed.

This afternoon when I got home, I prayed and thanked our Father God for the nth time. I cried again. I was so eager to go home to cry out all the anxiety, happiness and everything in our PR application which I kept in my heart since this lunch time. I called my husband again. We were talking about our little R. This is it, we are going to a place where we can fight and defeat infertility. A place where we can have a child. A place where we can be called mama and papa. A place where we can build and have our own family. Above all, a place prepared by our dear Father God for me, my husband and our little R.

I learned blogging because of our infertility ordeal. I blog because this is my only way to vent out all my feelings with us still childless for 7 years without hearing so many insensitive words from other people. I told myself, someday, when we come to reach the most coveted words "in God's perfect time", I will show all my blogs to our child. I will have him/her read all of it. How we struggled but most of all how we never lose our faith and hope that someday we will get to hold him/her in our arms.

Unknowingly, my one place of venting out all my emotions will become a source of inspiration and help to other applicants like me and my husband. To all my readers, I always say this, do not give up on your dream just like what we did. We have not yet achieved our dream but we are getting there. I know we have different stories but when you dream, strive hard to achieve it. No one says that your road will be easy, ours is a painful one, but we never lose hope and faith to our Father God. We breakdown, once in a while, but we stand again and we keep on fighting. Thus, keep on striving. Keep on believing. Keep on hoping. Keep on praying.

Here is our timeline in our PR application:

ITA: 12/18/2015
AOR: 12/28/2015
Schedule 4/4A: 12/31/2015
Medical Passed: 01/06/2016
BG 1st Update (Not Needed At This Time): 01/12/2016
RPRF Request for Payment: 01/26/2016
BG 2nd Update (In Progress): 03/01/2016
PPR: 03/11/2016
Exactly 2 months and 2 weeks

For our little R. I posted this on my infertility blog but this time I have a good answers to it all:

Indeed, love is blind because mama and papa loves you so much even if we do not know you yet physically but mentally and emotionally we have loved you so much. In God's most precious perfect time little R, we will come to cuddle, pamper and love you more with all our hearts. A little more little R. A little more. Winter is coming for you our little one. Thank you again dear Father God.